Saturday, July 25, 2009

Is it really?

The older I get the more I realize it is truly not about me. While I go through some stupid issue in life I know this, but then my mind does this two year old dance and begins to throw a tantrum because things aren't going my way. I want the world to stop and I want to say...WAIT! For once in my life I want things to go my way. I want things to be right for me. I want MY prayers answered the way I want them to be. Then I realize it's just not going to happen for me. It's going to be real. It is going to be life. It is going to, once again, bite me in the ass. It's then that I know, once again, that it is NOT about me. It is about the world, and those in it - right now.

I feel bad when I have those tantrum moments. Then, I get angry that things don't go my way. It is at that point that I realize that I have it really good. Really good! I have a wonderful set of parents who love me, and were there for me as much as they could be growing up. (Which apparently I'm still doing.) I have a daughter who is the complete light of my life. I have incredible friends who are there for me, and I them. I like my supervisor, and I enjoy working with the people I work with...what are they called? Oh, yeah co-workers. LOL On top of all this I completely and truly love my job. I'm one of the lucky people. I'm one of the blessed.

So, why do I get all wiggy and whiny? Because I don't have a boyfriend or husband? So what! I love to travel, and can afford to do it. Because I'm not rich? So what! I get money back when I file my taxes. Because I actually have to work for everything I have and have ever had? So what! I value my work ethic, and again I'm damn lucky to have a job I completely love.

Would it be nice to have all the stuff I just mentioned? Sure it would. But, I'm pretty happy. So is it really important to always get your way, and have everything about you? No! No it's not.

Be happy where you are. If you're really not, then work at changing it and make it a better outcome. It's all up to you anyway. YOU make your path. YOU choose to be happy. So it is up to YOU to do it.