I've been in a very dark place for the last few months. Very dark and dreary and very lonely. I've not talked about it here, and I'm not going to start. Instead I want to encourage myself, and you to find one thing positive every day, every single day, and write it down in a journal or in your blog. If you do this please post a message to me with your blog link. I promise I will return the favor and read your note. It can be as simple as a line, a photo, a joke you found quite funny, a poem that touched your heart, or something nice someone said or shared with you.
But, part of being happy are the choices we make to be happy. For me it is a daily choice. I made the choice to let go of my dark mood this past Saturday, 1 June 2011. I looked in the mirror and I told myself it was time to let it go. Oh, trust me I have serious things I will be focusing on. For instance I am going to the doctor to see if there is anything medically they can do to help me not fall back down into the darkness. It's scary down there. So, I don't want to go back. I want to deal with the mother load of bullshit I have on my doorstep and move onto a happy life - once and for all.
So, my positive today is this - It's okay to be afraid of change, as long as you're willing to look at it head on and work towards getting through it.
5 comments:
As always, my dear friend, you inspire me......I'm in the process of trying to climb out of a dark hole of depression, and I needed that "push" to concentrate on POSITIVE thoughts.
I hope you continue to feel better, and walk away from the "dark place" (that's what I call my depression, because it can feel SO dark).....wishing you much much happiness along the way!
{{{{{hugs}}}}}
~Barbara
Very inspiring Dee....I am in a dark place right now. I've given up I think for the moment and am just throwing my hands up in the air. I try to be positive but there is a horrible negative cycle going on in my brain. I know I am swimming in self pity....So I'm trying to remind myself that these moments will pass...and each second is a new start. :)
For Barbara & Livy,
Ladies I can so relate to the dark place, and yes, I too call it that - it is truly a dark place to be when your depressed.
I don't see it as self pity though. I see it as a need, or our brains crying out for us to be more positive to us as well.
Love you both ladies!
Dee,
I was your swap partner a few months ago (sent the weird spell book...LOL!) You blog is an inspiration...I suffer from the Unemployment Blues right now---no job for 7 months--not having a routine and no motivation puts me right into the DARKNESS...so much stress and as I should consider this time as a gift and should be completing projects it just hasn't been that way. I wish you much happiness as I know you will find it!
I didn't get a "weird spell book" I got an awesome BOS!
Yeah, being unemployed can truly SUCK! I was there in 2005, and I mean ALL of 2005. I applied for over 500 jobs before I finally got one with a friend at her dad's store. I got the Creative Director job, and it opened the door or inspiration for me to get back into the Government actually. So, as hard as it is to see this time you're out as a "gift" trust me it is. At least do something for you every week. Go to the park and sit under a tree and listen to the leaves blow, or the birds sing, or watch a bug on the ground. Just take a little bit of time for you to remember that you deserve it too. Then, when that little bit of time is up for that day or that week get back up and move on. But remember you need to not kick the crap out of yourself all the time. It's hard to remember sometimes.
Good luck & I hope you find something soon, if you haven't already.
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