Friday, April 1, 2011

Fool's Day

Happy April first all!

Today seems to be a day where I get to meet all of the fool's, or am I the fool?

It appears all I come into contact with today have been nothing but arrogant or rude to me.

It began with a co-worker coming into my office and stating he was surprised to see me today, as he "thought you [me] would be off committing suicide." I looked at him, refraining from wanting to get up and punch the shit out of him. I looked at him and stated:"You are aware my husband committed suicide, right?" Without blinking he said "I didn't know you were ever married." My come back was: "Well, he was only my common-law husband, but I did consider him my husband." His reply: "Oh, yeah. I forgot you Texas people, (um, that would be 'Texans'), do that - you have 'common-law' spouses."

I felt like saying yes...it's kind of like a trial marriage this way we don't HAVE to get a divorce. (In reality I KNOW you do...but as long as you don't have any accounts or things you've purchased you can just walk away.) Unlike this complete jackass who has been married, I believe I've been told, four times. WOW! Really? No, I was committed to only one man. He died. I've not dated since. I miss him every day of my life. However, being around men like this jackass makes me remember why I do not want a man in my life. He, along with men in my own family cause me feel as if I do not want men in my life. They tend to be ugly to me, and hurt me, treat me as if I'm below them, or I'm unworthy of respect. I don't need that shit.

So, this is how my day began at work. I can tell you that it only went downhill from here - right into the sewage pipe - where I seem to be stuck.

NOW - stating that, I will also state that it is up to ME whether I get over this crappy day, or stay stuck in the pipe of crap. Maybe, this is Karma's way of pulling a really BAD April Fool's Day joke on me and my life.

Well, it can only get better from here on out, because I choose not to allow this ruin the evening I'll have with my best friend.

I choose to ignore the ignorance.
I choose to reflect the ugliness that has been dished upon me - back onto those that dish it out.
I choose to be happy.
I choose to be positive.
I choose to be loving.
I choose ME, because I deserve to be happy, loved and positive.

So, I hope your April first is a GREAT day and free of ignorance.

Thank you for reading today. I promise I'll get back to my crafts and being upbeat and positive.

Please, continue with your regularly scheduled broadcast.

6 comments:

Liv said...

What a JERK. I'd be livid!!

NikonGoddess said...

I have been all day, and it's only made the day snowball into the sewage pipe that I'm in, and I'm trying to get out. I'm so pissed off. I have to cheer up. It's been a really shitty week. I just want it to be a good weekend. I'm really hoping for some sun!!!

Ashlee said...

I AM livid! I want to kick his ass!

Cheryl said...

WOW! What a complete ASS. I am speechless.

I hope your weekend goes much better. There are a LOT more people who care about you and want you to have a good life. SMILE!

Handmaid Joanna said...

TOTALLY nutso jerk. I'd say more, but I'm a bit speechless right now. Hugs, Dee.

JoAnn

NikonGoddess said...

Thank you all. I am still a bit dumbfounded by it, but my day has not gotten any better. It just continues to spiral...but I'm swimming against the stream to stay above the water! I find myself still saying nice things to the assholes I'm running across. Why? I do not know.
I do believe I have found a way to work out the stress this weekend - the zoo. I haven't been to one in years, and I need to be around critters. So, off to the Heidelberg zoo it is!
Love you all! Thank you!